I'M MY OWN SHRINK!!!!
Paano ko to nalaman?! I was walking for 2 minutes kasi gusto ko na sanang umuwi kasi wala naman na kong gagawin dito sa ust, tapos bgla kong naisip na mag-detour at pumunta dito sa nitro gig para mag-internet, and then i've realized, i'm my own shrink!!! I ofetn ask myself what's wrong, then i tell myself these are the things that's bothering me, what should i do, blah, blah blah,.....tapos it just hit me. Parang may isa pang tao sa ulo ko na nag-eexist para buhay ako. Yikes! tama nga siguro si mama, baka nahawa na ko sa mga patents kong schizt. ......
Mahira talaga kapag wala kang masabihan ng problems. Ewan ko, madami naman akng friends, pede ko na manag silng istorbohin kahitmga five minutes lang pero hindi ko maintidihan kung bakit hindi ko magawa istorbohin sila. I'm sure they would always be more than happy to help, pero i guess i've always been more comfortble dealing things on my own, yung tipong wala lagi karamay. Sheessh, what's wrong with me.
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Question lang. Bakit kapag depress ng isang tao, natural na reaction niya ay ang want niyang mag-self destruct? For example, like now, medyo down pa rin ako and honestly, gusto ko uminom, at gusto ko manigarilyo, kahit hithit buga lang ang gagawain ko. Shucks.... I can't keep on doing this everytime na ma-depress ako?! Bukod sa wala akong pera lagi e wala namang madudulot na mabuti yan dahil bibigyan lang ako ng lung disease ng yosi, at patutulugin lang naman ako ng mahimbing ng alcohol, yung tipong i'm wasted na wala na akong last thought bago ko ipikit ang mata ko.
Pero bakit gusto ko pa rin siyang gawin ngayon? Bakit? AS IN WHY IS THE BECAUSE?
Kung bibigyan mo ako ng beer ngayon sa harap ko, e sure akong hindi ako makaktanggi and i think the reason kung bakit pran gusto ko nang umuwi e dahil alam kong wala akong mayayang uminom ngayon (which i think is both a good thing and a bad thing).
HUHUHU.... I want to find a corner and shout my lungs out. As in yung AHHHHHHHH! lang na shout. Then i want to say all the bad wors out loud then stay on a corner and cry my eyes out until it literally comes off..........

Yihee!October na! bagong center nanaman bukas.....hay....tapos na ako sa mga baliw. mga kids naman. Kakanta nanaman ako ng:
Where is (kid's name) 2x
Here i'am 2x
How are you this morning
Very well i thank you
come and play 2x

pag tagalog:
Nasaan si (kid's name)2x
nandito 2x
Kamusta ka ngayon 2x
mabuti't masaya 2x

pag tapos na:
We are going 2x
Now goodbye 2x
See you on(day of next session)
now good bye 2x

meron pang mga:
tayo ng sumakay sa bola
mataas tumalbog ito
tayo ng sumakay sa bola
mataas tumalbog ito
boink,boink bilisan mo
boink, boink bilisan mo
boink,boink bilisan mo
boink, boink bilisan mo

tsaka;
the wheels* on the bus go round and round**
round and round, round and round
the wheels on the bus go round and round
all over town
*windows, **up and down
*babies, **wawawa
*momies, **shshsh
Hay...PCMC, her we come...

P.S. pedia song by migs (pasintabi sa mga chinese, joke lang po ito)
were is lao shr 2x
ni hao ma 2x
zhu ni sheng er kwai la 2x
hao, hao, hao