I just read my friend's e-mail to her dad. ang una kong comment, "hindi ka naman talaga galit ano?!" pero medyo nalungkot lang ako because i never realized that ganon na pala talaga kalala yung problema nila ng family niya. and i'm supposed to be her best friend! kamusta naman ako. somehow, na-guilty ako kasi parang feeling ko i really wasn't there for her. And now i can't help but feel how lucky i am because despite of all my dad's ~ahem~, they were able to surpass it. and somehow i know that we were never a factor because if my mom wanted it, then noon pa sila hiwalay at malamang 2 lang kami ng kapatid ko ngayon, hindi na kami aabot ng anim! i guess mahal lang talaga ng parents ko ang isa't isa.
Which is why i'm more scared shitless now than before......
Sa clinic naman, our receptionist is currently having marriage problems as well. She tells us that she now regrets marrying her husband, and that she'll leave him once she has the chance. siyempre, sinabi pa rin namin na wag, may mga anak kayo and everything pero come to think of it, gusto mo ba talaga lumaki ang mga anak mo sa ganoong set up? (syempre chinismis ko yung receptionist namin diba?)
and now it makes me think that i'm really probably better off na single. Sabi ng best friend ko, he thinks i'm single by choice. Sagot ko sa kanya noon hindi. E kung meron ba naman akong nakilala e di malamang hindi na rin ako single no, atsaka hindi ko na kasalanan na kung magkagusto naman ako sa iba e hindi nila mabalik ang feelings ko ~ancient history.....enough said......~.
If before i'm single by chance, now i think i am being single by choice........