Ang sarrrraaaappppp! aircon! kamusta naman kasi ang kotse ko, kailangan ko i-pa check kaya ayon, di ako makapg aircon. medyo tinopak kagabi at akala ko e titirik ako sa gitna ang alabang pero lucky me mami, hindi naman. Sinusumpong lang si pong (pangalan ng car), ayaw ata umuwi ng alabang, hehehehe.......
May 1 na! holiday nga at kaslukuyang medyo tahimik pa dito sa mall pero eto ako, tatambay dito sa eastwood para makatapos ng trabaho, at makapanood ng sine. Kung ano movie hindi ko alam baka iron man. may nag sabi sa akin na pangit daw yung super hero movie. Bigla naman akong nanghinayang sa 160 Php ko. Ayaw ko gawin yung trabaho sa bahay dahil bahay nga iyon. At malamang manood lang ako ng ugly betty buong maghapon di na ko naka tapos ng work, tataas nanaman ulit ang kuryente ko. panalo! actually, medyo sinusulit ko lang yung ibabayad ko dito sa internet shop at siyempre para makalibre na din ng aircon, para medyo matuyo yung kilikili ko, medyo namawis e (minsan talag kahit pag nag deodorant ka, iba talaga ang init dito sa pilipinas), kakahiya naman. baka may makapansing cutie sayang hehehe.

I just read my friend's e-mail to her dad. ang una kong comment, "hindi ka naman talaga galit ano?!" pero medyo nalungkot lang ako because i never realized that ganon na pala talaga kalala yung problema nila ng family niya. and i'm supposed to be her best friend! kamusta naman ako. somehow, na-guilty ako kasi parang feeling ko i really wasn't there for her. And now i can't help but feel how lucky i am because despite of all my dad's ~ahem~, they were able to surpass it. and somehow i know that we were never a factor because if my mom wanted it, then noon pa sila hiwalay at malamang 2 lang kami ng kapatid ko ngayon, hindi na kami aabot ng anim! i guess mahal lang talaga ng parents ko ang isa't isa.
Which is why i'm more scared shitless now than before......
Sa clinic naman, our receptionist is currently having marriage problems as well. She tells us that she now regrets marrying her husband, and that she'll leave him once she has the chance. siyempre, sinabi pa rin namin na wag, may mga anak kayo and everything pero come to think of it, gusto mo ba talaga lumaki ang mga anak mo sa ganoong set up? (syempre chinismis ko yung receptionist namin diba?)
and now it makes me think that i'm really probably better off na single. Sabi ng best friend ko, he thinks i'm single by choice. Sagot ko sa kanya noon hindi. E kung meron ba naman akong nakilala e di malamang hindi na rin ako single no, atsaka hindi ko na kasalanan na kung magkagusto naman ako sa iba e hindi nila mabalik ang feelings ko ~ancient history.....enough said......~.
If before i'm single by chance, now i think i am being single by choice........

Break muna. I have been google-ing CIMT for patient qualifications and after an hour, I had enough. I'll try again tomorrow. Gosh. it's easter. It means it's monday tomorrow=work=new patients=more work. And I don't want to yet. My vacation is just starting, although i often get sick when i'm on leave, i kinda like the idea of getting out of bed at the time you're supposed to be at work.
Uhhhhhhh.................................................huhuhu....................................huhuhu.....
I went on vacation so that I could reset myself and get me motivated. The problem is not seeing them for a few days had made me reconsider some things, like am I still happy at my work, if Im not will i resign, what will i do if i resign, the usual chain of thought.
Okay, here's the thing. These past few months had mede me realize that I do love my work, as an OT. I like being the boss, and I do think I have the knack for it. But the main problem is not the job itself but it's more with the people i work with. They don't make it fun and I seriously don't know who's being honest with me. I don't go to most of the gimmicks they arrange because going would make me feel like i'm still working. I could run away and not work there, but the thing is there will be people like them wherever. I feel like I'm suddenly transported back to highschool, where my first 2 years was actually hell. Thankfully things were way better on my 3rd year, but I have to wait for another year? I have to go through with it because it was highschool and I don't have the choice mainly because my parents has a final say about it but i'm working now and I can resign and my parents cannot do anything about it actually. But then what would I do? They'll be leaving soon anyway. And actually, reading 7 habits of highly effective people is not helping me much right now because it makes me feel more frustrated and I don't know if i am making much progress.
huhuhu........................................................................................huhuhu.............

I love a challenge. Don't you? just when I thought I was familiar with the current techniques that are being used in practice, I realized I wasn't. I have a new patient whose wife apparently does her homework and regularly researches new treatment procedures in the internet asked me one magical question: What do you think of induced constraint therapy? And i was like "say what?" I was lucky i was able to get out of my wits and answered "Im familiar with it. it was mentioned in school but just enpassing(lying.... and its holy week. im so bad~well if it was mentioned, tulog ako non kaya di ko narinig). More focus was given to the traditional techniques such as NDTS, MRPS...." Gosh. Pang Binibining Pilipinas! Super. Except for the wrong grammar part. And since I told my patient Im willing to try it out and see if it will work, here iam. researching. To give you guys an idea(lalo na yung sa mga tulad ko na hindi masyado familiar) it's like MRPs, na mas toxic. because the program requires that the unaffected arm be placed in a sling (accdg to anna limpingco yung tunay na prog requires the px to wear a FIBER GLASS SPLINT!), then the affected arm is subjected into intense training. as in pipilitin mo yung patient na humawak ng spoon, mag sabon etc. using his hemi arm. I haven't seen a manual or treatment protocol yet and after an hour of research so far what I have are the qualifications so that the patient may be included in the program and with what other techniques can it be combined with.
And to think, Im supposed to be on leave and was supposed to not do any work till monday. Looks like I have the whole week to look for material. Sabi ko na nga ba. hehehe ;p Enkoy the week guys

Today wasn't exactly what I had in mind. I was planning on spending my morning with my bestfriend, then I'll be going to my home patient in the afternoon, be dead tired so that I'll just hop in bed the moment I step inside the house. Instead, my brunch was cancelled, I moved my scheduled patient early in the afternoon, spent 2 hours in starbucks, played 2 video games in the arcade, watched atonement (which by the way is a very serious movie), and to top all that am having a massive headache because I haven't eaten properly all day (or this could be just a delayed brain freeze reaction from the coffee jelly frappe I had this afternoon ~note to self: stick to hot starbucks drinks~). Or again this could be due to the fact that there were noisy sossy little girls and boys inside the movie house a while ago. It was a good thing the movie was too serious for them, they left 1/3s of the film and never came back again, good riddance. The movie was good, and I actually wanted to find a copy of the book and see if the book was as good as the film. The part that I liked about it is how one of the characters (Brainy - pronounced briny) recognized her mistake and tried to seek atonement for the thing she had done to her sister and to Robbie.
I'm just babbling here. Im checking my watch because I still have to eat and actually have no idea where. Ill probably try the japanese restaurant in the 2nd floor.

Questions lang......
1. Pwede kaya ako umabsent sa Monday? Sabihin ko na maysakit ako kahit wala naman, ayoko lang silang makitang lahat (patients and co-workers).
2. Ano naman ang gagawin ko sa araw na yon? Manonood ng t.v.? titig sa kawalan?
3. Kung aabsent ako ng monday, pati rin kaya tuesday?
4. E kung mag leave na lang kaya ako? May VLP na ata ako na pwedeng gamitin, di ko lang alam kung pwede na ulit. Gets?
5. Saan naman ako kukuha ng pera pag nag leave ako?
6. E pero gusto ko ba talaga mag leave? Nag kakasakit kasi ako e kapag hindi ako nag tatrabaho.
7. E kung ganon, ano na gagawin ko, kung yung solusyon sa problema ko e yung problema ko rin mismo?

*Kung may sagot ka, paki text naman ako please. Di naman ako nag palit ng number. Piso lang naman yun e. Thanks ;p

happy new year peeps! wow. 2008. two thousand eight. 2-0-0-8. (halata ba na wala na akong mailagay dito kundi happy new year?)
But seriously. Guys, how was your 2007? Mine was.......hmmmm....how am I going to say it........sakto lang. Yep that's a nice way of putting it. Sakto lang. I had my shares of ups and downs, high times and low times. But if I would look back, I would not change a single moment. because it has made me stronger (personality-wise and drinking-wise hehehe) and more mature.
But this isn't a proper time for drama. This is suppose to be happy! So let's be happy mga peeps. And be thankful for all the blessings we have received. And my wish for you all, is to have a happier 2008!
Cheers!hic! whoops

Wow, it's been months, at ngayon lang ulit ako nag paramdam. Ako ay nandito pa rin. Newsflash: handa na po akong umalis dito sa Pilipinas. Wala na atang ligtas na lugar dito bukod sa sarili kong bahay. After the glorietta bombing and the batasan bombing i've had enough. Greener pastures here I come. ANd to prove na aalis na ko talaga, kasalukuyan akong nagprint ng application form para ako ay makapunta sa........CANADA(beauty queen version, all smiles with arms raised)! Andun na maga kamag anak ko e, bakit hindi pa ako sumunod. tutal, mula ng naging citizen ang tito ko dun, wala na siyang naging bukang bibig kundi kung gaano kaganda dun (which is actually true). Actually, nagpapatagal rin lang ako dito sa netopia para masulit ko naman yung mga 20 Php na ibabayad ko. Kasama pa yung mga 5 Php/page na printing ng form. may computer sa bahay, wala nga lang kaming phone kaya la ring internet. Blame my kakuriputan. Ayoko mag bayad ng 700/month or 995/month(DSL) para rin sa phone line na hindi ko naman masyado kailangan. Besides, may libre internet sa clinic, hehehehe......

Ei mga peeps, musta na? Ako, eto. OT pa rin, windang pa rin. Nanganganak na ang pimples ko sa kakatrabaho. ANg tanging paraan ko na lang ng relaxation ay ang manood ng DVD ng mga series sa bahay. Newsflash, NAPANOOD KO NA ANG TRANSFORMERS!!!!!! YAHOO!!!! pati Harry Potter and the Order of the Phonenix! Meron na rin akong Harry Potter book 7. How can you top that! Parang biglang sumabog ang pag pipigil na nararamdaman ko sa paggastos dahil nga sa nag titipid ako, tapos ayon! Hindi ko kinaya ang hindi gumastos dahil naman mga dude, 7 araw na akong nag tatrabaho sa isang linggo, di naman bawal gastusin ang pinaghirapan ko diba? Bakit pa ako nag trabaho kung di ko gagastusin? Hehehehe

Ako na lang ba ang taong hindi nananood ng Transformers? As in, lahat ata ng kilala ko, nakapanood na at lahat sila ang sinsabi "WoW! Astig!" Huhuhu.....
Nanawagan po ako, i-libre niyo ko ng sine! Isa na po ako naghihirap na therapist, at sa totoo lang (nakakahiya man sabihin) WALA PA AKONG NAPANOOD NA SINE NA PINALABAS THIS SUMMER! Di ko napanood si Spiderman, Pirates, Shrek, Fantastic 4. Bukod sa sabi nila na hindi naman daw masyado maganda, wala pa ako napanood! Last ko pa ata, Because i said so ni mandy moore. E parang March pa ata yun e! July na kamusta naman. Kaya please, I-LIBRE NIYO KO NG SINEEEEE!!!!!!!! ^--^

Ni hao! Eto ako, walang magawa. At naghihintay na mag bukas ang gateway kasi maghahanap ako ng regalo ng dad ko. Magiging mabait naman akong anak. Para kasi ako yung tipo ng anak na absentee, pero dinadaan sa materyal na bagay ang pag bawi sa mga buwan na hindi ako umuwi. Tutal, ang alam naman nila e wala na akong ibang gingawa kundi mag trabaho (Daig ko pa si Lord e. SIya Day off pag Sunday, ako hindi), parmdam ko naman na kahit papaano e may pera ako (kahit wala). Kung saan siya napupunta, sa pambayad ng ilaw, tubig, association dues, credit card, kotse. Lekat. Di mo magamit dahil wala kang pang gas, marami pang kailangan tulad ng pa tune up, pag palit ng ilaw, ng bumper. Siyet. Para siyang pet. Kung naala niyo yung tamagochi. Ganun. Hindi nga lang siya lumalaki, pero tumatanda. Kailang mo linisan, i-wax, i-vacuum yung loob. Hay. At least di siya maingay pag gabi, at hindi nag hahanap ng attensyon. Hehehe

hello pilipinas and hello world! kamusta naman ang aking mga nasasakupan? pasensiya na at ngayon lang ako ulit nag kwento, medyo busy ang inyong diyosa sa kanyang mga trabaho. Anyways.....
Sino nanood ng Maging sino ka man? ang pangit ng ending no? naasar talaga ko. kamusta naman ang resurrection? di ba niya nakita yung puting ilaw sa dulo ng tunnel? bakit hindi siya pumunta dun?
minsan naiisip ko na na kunin ang ibang mga naging entries ko dito, haluaan ko pa ng iba pang ka-istiran, i-pa publish at gawing libro para ma pag kakitaan? medyo madami dami na tong mga nailalagay ko dito, la naman ako masyado mapala. aside from peace of mind na maari ko rin namang makuha sa beer, pag shopping ng mga libro, o pag hithit ng katol/pentel pen/liquid paper/mighty bond. ayoko ng rugby. pang masa. diyosa ako e. dapat maiba. wala namang bago sa akin. nag mamaneho na pala ako mga people! astig (naks! love yourself). so pag may nakita kayong blue na kia pride sa edsa na parang pagong, malamang ako yon. di naman ako sobrang bagal, hindi ko nga lang masyadong hinahataw yung kotse, trabaho yon ng pinsan k0. dun lang ako sa speed na comfortable ako. gusto ko pa ata mabuhay no? tsaka paano kung di ako ma resurrect tulad ni Eli sa maging sino ka man. ika nga nung sign sa mga jeep, "distansiya lang amigo"

napansin ko lang, koreanang hilaw ang blog name ko pero hindi naman korean ang nackground music ko dati. kaya i-todo na natin to!!!hulaan niyo folks, pero malamang madali niyo mahulaan yan, ermitanyo na kayo sa kweba kung hindi niyo alam kung saang koreanovela theme song yan ;p

Anak ng lekat! lagi ko na lang nakakalimutan on the first try ang password ko. Pero anyways, ano na ba ang bago? Wala! as in capital W, capital A, capital L, capital A, wala. Yun pa rin ang life ko. Patients, clinic. Nag drive na pala ko, minsan. Pero may kasama pa rin. Hindi ko pa masyado kaya mag isa kaya hindi ko pa dinadala ang kotse sa clinic. Pero malapit na yon. Dapat sulitin ang pagdi-drive habang bakasyon ang mga bagets. Wala ata ako balak makipagsiksikan sa traffic ng ateneo no! It's the time of the yeat na dumadagsa ang mga patients, kaya ayon, hindi nanaman ako lumalabas ng sulok ko. Suwerte ko nga lang ngayon at walang pasok kasi holiday sa San Juan to celebrate their 100 years of founding chuvaness. Andito ako sa may computer shop sa may Anonas. Galing ako bambang bumili ng med supply para sa friend ko, Hindi ko rin kasi alam kung tulog ba ako non kaya ako nag volunteer na ako na lang ang pupunta ng bambang para sa kanila. As if naman umabot ako don! E sa tagal ko s UST, never ako pumunta ng bambang. Felt weird nga na nagtatanong ako kay mama kanina kung paano pumunta don. Nung tinananong niya kung bakit, sinabi ko na maghahanap ako ng materials for home, i.e. theraputty, digiflex, cones, etc. Baka mas mura kesa sa global ako kumuha. Kaya lang, wala. Actually di ko siya masyado nilibot, hindi naman kasi yon mall diba? Lupet. Umiral nanaman ang pgka gala ko ;p

Kamusta naman ang kabagalan challenge! medyo 15 years bago mag connect. Kamusta naman ako? ayos lang. OT pa rin. dun pa rin. may mga hell patients pa rin. tungkol naman sa ibang aspeto ng buhay ko, sa friendster niyo na lang tignan. hint: wala pa rin pagbabago sa profile ko. kung ano man ang nakalagay dun, yun yon. Lekat na friendster yan. gusto pa magpalit ako ng email add. ayoko nga. strictly business yung isa e. at medyo kabagalan challenge ang pag konnek. hay. mag crosswords na lang ako. may nalaman akong site e, recommended nung co-staff ko na PT. bestcrosswords.com for all your crosswords needs. ayos nga na pampalipas oras sa clinic yan pag petiks,pero dahil may problema yung internet connection sa clinic, text twist ang latest crave. high score to beat ay 148,000, level 33.
hay, tagal ng friendster. medyo inuubos niya ang pasensiya k0. it's becoming a chore....hrrrr

Astig people. Andito ako internet cafe kasi naiwan ko ang mahiwaga kong susi sa loob ng bahay. at lahat ng kasama ko sa bahay, pati na kapitbahay ko e gagabihin. Ayos ka talaga nina. rock on!

Valentines day yesterday. Did nothing special. Spent the night drinking so that i can fall asleep without my allergy setting off. Now i also have to spend my day tomorrow looking for a CD that has songs appropriate for ballroom dancing. i can't belive the things i have to go through for work.

Eh? Can't believe that i've spent 5 precious minutes just updating this blog to a more complicated setting. Kanina may 45 minutes pa ko before my yaya duty starts, so sabi ko blog muna. Abay mantakin mo, may kung ano ano pa na eklavu na pauso tong blogger. Anyways, naka 1 month na ulit ang 2007. May 11 months na lang ang natitira. Kailangan ko na talgang ayusin ang mga kapapelan para pumanta sa iba pang lupalop ng mundo para mag trabaho. Ganon pa rin ang practice. Bagong patients, Lumang patients, return-of-the-comeback na patients. Stroke pa rin. May speech problems pa rin sila, dysphagia, etc. Haayyy....wala nang pinatutunguhan tong blog na to. ;p

The year end report

Siyempre, tulad sa mga tv stations, kung saan meron silang "the best episodes" of 2006 o mga year end report sa mga new shows, dapat naman siguro natin malaman kung ano ang na-accomplish ko so far. Hmmmm

**Una, nagawa ko na ang 2 sa 3 bagay na gusto kong gawin after i graduate (backtrack: i wanted to do 3 things: work in a call center, just for the experience of it; mag work sa PGH, or in this case mag volunteer at mag try mag work sa PGH; at pumunta sa Korea). Obviuosly you know what the 2 things are. 1 na lang ang kailangan kong gawin then.

**Pangalwa, pumasa ako ng board exams, at ngayon ay isa nang practicing OT. Wuhoo. One small step for career, one giant leap for me. Because starting my career is a path to self fulfillment, thuis fulfilling Abraham Maslow's heirarchy of needs. Kailangan ko pa ng power para eventually, marating ko ang self actualization. Now how do i go about that? hmmm.....

**Driving skills are improving. Hindi na ako masyadong namamtayan ng makina ngayon, kaya ko na mag atras abante ng kotse, mag park kahit sablay at patakbuhin ang kotse. konting practice na lang, kukuha na ko ng license. Joy rides here i come!

**Love life is still non existent (how did that become an accomplishment?!)--->eto sagot: love life non existent means i can focus on achieving the things on the wall:the car, the house and the loads of cash. Sabi ko nga sa sarili ko, i have 38 years to get use to the path of single-blessedness, so i don't have to get sad over it now. Things on the wall now. love life later.

Wow. Not bad. Aside from that, i've managed to not gain alot of weight during the holidays. Also i firmly decided to pursue the practice abroad. So i've downloaded the HPC requirements, will start to get everything together in the suceeding months. Updated my CV. I'm good to go.

Actually tinatamad ako pumasok bukas. At kung pwede ko nga rin lang sabihin sa mga bosing ko na ayoko pumasok dahil tinatamad ako, ginawa ko na. But then, no trabajo, no sweldo.

This is going to be my 100th post. Yahoo! 100 posts of all the kawindangan, kabangagan, GGB episodes (FYI: GGB - gulogulo buhay), everything. Kung paano siya umabot ng 100 post is an obvious manifestation ng pagkakaroon ko ng verbal diarrhea at kailangan ko lang ng outlet na medyo accepatable sa society. Kaya ayan, kung ano ano ang pinaglalagay ko dumami tuloy ng husto. So, what is this going to be all about? I have no f****ng idea.....

**In 2 minutes, Christmas is finally over. Tapos na ulit ang isang araw sa mundo kung saan naghahari ang kabutihan at bukas muli nanamang maghahari ang kasamaan. Example, balik nanaman ang mga pasahero sa Cubao station sa pag aaway dahil pag sisiksikan, na mag contribute sa pagkakaroon ng stress sa buhay ng iba pang pasahero, at hindi mo alam kung ano ang kasamaang maidudulot nito sa sangkatauhan. Buti na lang walang pasok bukas. Iba talaga kapag ang presidente ng bansa mo e workaholic pero mahilig sa bakasyon. Kaya nga naman kung gusto niyang magbakasyon dahil pasko, bakit nga naman hindi pa niya idamay ang buong Pilipinas. To think meron pang mga taong ayaw na binabaligtad niya ang mga holiday, pero sabihin nga nila, secretly, hindi ba sila natutuwa?

**SMC - Samahan ng Malalamig ang Christmas. Sabi nila, ito raw ang mga federasyon naming mga single na ang ka-relasyon e ang remote ng tv, o alcohol, o kung ano mang bagay na walang buhay at hindi humihinga. Pero hindi ba talaga naman malamig ang Christmas, kasi diba winter sa ibang bansa at ang cold wind na mula sa China, Japan at Russia ay bumaba dito sa atin kaya lumalamig (Nyok-nyok-nyok yok...corny).? Kaya in essence, lahat tayo ay miyembro ng samahang ito diba?
No people. Hindi malamig ang pasko ko. Well actually, matagal nang malamig ang pasko ko hindi ko na nararamadaman. na malamig. Ang lamig na nararamdaman ko e yung lamig sa umaga na dahilan kung bakit ako na-late pumasok sa clinic. Masarap kasi matulog e.
In fairness, this years not bad for my love life. Two boys in a span of a month. Wow. kakahaba ng hair. Im still waiting for my shampoo endorsements. But i don't want to go into details as to why it is still non existent. Sawa na akong pag usapan ang lahat ng insecurities ko sa katawan ko. But in case you are wondering, I' m a one hit wonder. I think nasabi ko na rin ang tungkol dito sa mga previous posts ko, hanapin niyo na lang. Sabagay, may New Year pa, tsaka Valentines, Labor day. Maraming holidays sa loob ng 1 taon na wala akong kasama kundi remote, o libro, o alcohol. Dapat siguro palitan na lang yung pangalan nug samahan, gawin na lang siya SMH - samahan ng malalamig ang holidays.

Okay people, showtime's over. Manonood na ako ng House. hehehehe