bad trip. kasalukuyan ko ngayon pinag tiya-tiyagaan ang nasunog kong pop corn. In-adjust ko pa yung settings nito kanina. kamusta naman ang carcinogens nito. sana pala nag yosi na lang ako.

iniisip ko lang yung shout out ko sa facebook kanina: kailangan ko na ayusin ang buhay ko. sa lahat ba ito ng aspeto? mag print na ko in the next few days ng application form papunta canada. wala naman ata talaga ako dahilan para hindi umalis. sabagay, nasabi ko naman din dati na hindi ako mag papapigil. siguro lang ang wish ko, sana nga may pumigil sa akin.

Holy week. At para sa ibang mga pilipino, ito ay isang panahon ng pag ninilay, at bakasyon. Para sa pamilya namin, ito ay panahon ng well, pahinga. Natutuwa sina mama kapag umuwi ako, in the hopes na ako ay sasaniban ng mga angel at gagawin ko ang mga chores dito. Sadly, nakabakasyon din ang mga angel na sasapi sana kaya kapag andito ako,firm ako na kusinera lang ako, tsaka dishwasher, wag na nila masyado asahan na ako ay mag lilinis ng bahay.
At dahil dito, ginagamitan ako ng nanay ko ng isang ancient technique para mapa kilos kami, at yun ay ang mag guilt trip. Mula pa lang nung pag dating ko nung tuesday, wala akong ibang ginawa kundi saluhin ang lahat ng pang guilt trip ng nanay ko. Kesyo hindi daw ako malagay dito sa bahay, kesyo ipag-plantsa ko daw siya o kaya mag laba daw ako. O kahit man lang ligpitin ko daw yung kalat ko. Wuhoo!!!Sadly din, medyo laos na kasi yung technique ni mama, kaya di na ko tinatablan. Hehehehehe

Hala kayo....andyan na si Jason.... At paki explain nga kung bakit malaki ang topak nitong keyboard ko?!!!!! Kainis.
Nanood ako ng Friday the 13th kanina Eto yung nth installment nng Texas Chainsaw Massacre character na si Jason. At dahil puro decapitation and dugo all over, at pagkatapos niyang kong pasigawin ng bonggang bongga ng 2x times dahil sa gulat, eto, inaaliw ako ang sarili ko para hindi ko siya mapanaginipan. Fuck! Ang laki ng topak ng keyboard.......Yung dot lang naman. Eish!
Nanonood ako kanina ng Fated to Love You, maganda siya at nakakatawa kaya lang, medyo dragging. Finorward ko na lang ng mega, as in mga 16 episodes para makita kung anong development ng story. Obviously either nalaglag yung una or false alarm lang siya. May infertility chenelin e (spoiler alert: para sa mga interesadong manood, ipikit niyo ang inyong mga mata o kaya isara na ang window ng blog).
New achivement: kasalukuyan akong nag download using torrent, unsuccesful yung download ko kahapon, may audio lang walang vid, unless kailangan ko siyang ilipat sa PSP para mapanood. Hmmm.....note to self, must try this....
Now, im thinking of things that i would want to watch. Mga two hours pa kasi bago matapos ang download.

It's March already. Time flies by so fast. So fast, that the first three months of my 2009 was filled with activities I didn't even notice. January was the usual. There was a different twist last Feb, with the worst date in the history of my dates for a pre-valentines happening. Then there was my brother's wedding this afternoon....
January: It was just with the usual tikoy, and new patients, and old patients. The only thing exciting about it was that it was about this time my Bora trip was finalized. I booked a ticket, paid my part of our hotel reservation ( I went with my cousins and my cousin's fiancee), bought new swim wear. Hay, it was the hightlight of my month. It was enough to psych myself to go to work everyday because I will be enjoying the beach for the next 4 days of Feb.
Feb: Aside from the Bora trip, my brother suddenly dropped the bomb on us announcing that his girlfriend (now wife) is pregnant. They are both adults but the main concern was that they were still unprepared, and my sister in law isn't finished with college. Wuhoo!!! Within the same month I had the chance to have a get together with my old college buddies, which gave a perfect opportunity for a friend to set me up with her other friend. Which was fine, until I met the guy. I knew something was off while we were texting, and my fears were confiremed within the first 3 seconds of our meeting. It was an experience I would never want to go through again. Honestly. I don't mind if nobody introduces anybody to me in the very near future. I think I would have to think of ways to tell my friends, politely, that I can take care of my love life, thank you very much! All of the stress, combined withwork was enough to make me look forward to the "it" vacation of 2009. Even though I spent most of my time eating, drinking or walking, it was fun. And because of bad weather during out last day in Bora, I had a chance to travel, even though it was only for 1 1/2 hour of bus ride from Caticlan to Kalibo because the airline company decided to divert their planes and just delay their remaining flights for 3 hours instead of delaying it for a whole night. So I ended up departing from Kalibo airport for my flight back to Manila. And because it was my first time to ride a plane, I didn't mind. Then the very next day, all of the stress was injected back to my system because I was surprised that our Malolos trip was the pamamanhikan already, and that they set up the date for March 2 which was then only 2 weeks away. Imagine my shock.
March: My brother got married this morning, but he needed to take his wife back to her dorm because she has exams this week. I'm not sure if she'll be here for the week end. Probably since her parents doesn't like the idea of letting her stay there, due to the rumors it might cause. Well yeah, who would've thought hat my youngest brother would be the first to marry in our family? Certainly not my parents. But they were supportive, that's why everything worked out alright.

Blog muna bago ako manood.......
Shit na uber lagkit! kamusta naman. Mukhang maysakit nanaman ang aking baby pong at kailangan ko nanamang mag labas ng limpak limpak na salapi na hindi ko naman hawak. Medyo uimaalog kasi pagdating ng 95 km/h na ang sabi ng tatay ko e dapat ko daw pa check yung alignment ng kotse, mga 1500 Php din daw yun. Tapos panahon na ng kanyang tune up at mukhang kailangan ko pa check ang carborador kasi madumi na at tingin ko ang dahilan kung bakit mahina ang hatak ng kotse, mga libo din yon. Mag papa rehistro pa ako next month dahil ang ending lang ng plate number niya ay 1, meaning january. Siyet na malagkit talaga. Mapapayosi ka sa saya, yun nga lang bawal dito, nasa Alabang kasi ako at hindi lang nila alam na nag yosi na ko. Saka na pag alam na nila. Besides, naka walo din ata ako kanina nung nasa Eastwood ako. Waaaahhhh...........Huhuhuhuhuhuhuhu...........................waaaaahhhhhhhh.........huhuhuhuhuhuhuhu
SIyet talaga. Siyet! Siyet! Siyet!

I'm currently typing this na may alcohol sa sistema ko, so please bear with me. Naka apat akong shot ng tequila, at mga 2 baso ng wine. Na corny han lang ako kasi pag inom ko ng wine nawala ;lang yung ta ma ng tequila. Corny. Gisto ko pa sana kaya lang na claim na yung natirang kalahati ng tequila namin ng tatay ng friend ko, wala na kaming magaw, nasa kanila na e. oh well.....
hindi pa namamanhid ang mukha ko. pag ako hindi pa talaga tinamaan, titira lang ako ng stalion. shit! lasengga lang ito mga bata. wag tularan
nananood lang ako ng koreanovela online, ito ata ang pinaka mabilis na 10 minutes sa talambuhay ko. o baka naman kasi lasing ako. pero hindi [a ako lasing e. oinaantok lang
siyet talaga.

'Tis the season tobe drinking, fa-la-la-la-la, la-la-la-hic!
Meery Chritmas mga peeps! Kamusta naman ang mga celebrations niyo? Mine was obviuosly filled with alcohol. All of the sudden nag karoon ako ng matinding uhaw......for alcohol!
Bagong message from 2258004: No friends online.
Alcohol please! Decemberfest hase officially started last 12/13/2008, when I, finished 1 L of beer. Nag beer tower kasi kami, 3L, 3 kami tumira, ibig sabihin ti 1L kami!Wuhoo! Keep 'em coming....
Happy Holidays!

Ang bilis ng panahon, December na! Mga gifts ko mga peeps, don't forget. Cash para mas masaya. I appreciate yung gifts, but I need cash. Hehehehe Joke!
Wala lang. Medyo disappointed lang ako sa mga turn of events na may kinalaman sa future ng career ko. Na-delay nanaman ang accreditation. O well, let's hope and pray. We have to think positive. Na-amaze lang ako. May classmate ako na mag seminar sa UST sa December regarding dysphagia. Yehey! Ang galing niya, napaisip naman ako. Saan na ba pumunta ang buhay ko. Mantakin mo yun, nag seminar na siya to other professionals? May naitutulong siya sa growth ng profession dito sa pilipinas. Ako? I guess ang pinaka the best na contribution ko e to be the best OT that I can be. So what kung hindi ako maging CS, or mag lectures. What's important is that I do my best in what I do, and serve my patients well. Mahirap na ngang gawin ang trabaho mo, so at least in my small little way,I do my part. Hehehe... Tama lang naman diba? I guess not all of us are destined for greater things, but what's important is that we be the best in our field, and try and set an example for the future OTs of the Philippines.
Naks! Parang nakainom lang a. Wala pang alcohol ang katawan ko sa lagay na to. Wala lang. Nag senti lang,wala kasi akong magawa dito sa bahay. Tinotopak pa ang internet connection kanina. Hanep.

wala ako masabi sa mga palabas sa t.v ngayon. mga ganon na ang linya neng. "You're just a gold digger in red", "That murderess in yellow". May color assignment. "Go to hell!" "I'll see you there!" O diba? Tuwing gabi, kaya ko lang pinapanood ang mga palabas sa t.v. ay para sa mga verbal wars na masayang panoorin. Tuwing may scene si Claudine at Angelica, parang boxing round ni Paquiao. Ting!At ang mga dress, isang beses pa lang ata sumablay ang stylist ni Angelica. Yun ay yung nag suot siya ng black lace na dress, na may pang ilalim na color nude na high colar(?) yung design, na ang bagsak e sumasabit lang sa boobs ni angelica. SO far yun lang. Kahit ang purple na maxi dress niya winner.
Astig diba. Although minsan medyo sumasabit ang mga linya, merong mga "Bribery?Susuhulan natin siya?" Obvious ba? Di mo kailangan i-translate ng tagalog to english at english to tagalog. Dictionary?
hehehehe
Wala akong masyadong malagay. Kaya ayan, mga oinyon ko na lang.

it's hard when your bored. and there is not a good thing on...wala ka makausap heheh.........im currently watching gossip girl for the nth time hehehe....

Kamusta naman ang 6-8 pm na coffee talk. kadadating lang nila at eto ako sulitin muna ulit ang aircon at internet. Ayaw pa mag load nung dirty, sexy money na personality test. kitams, ganun ako naburo, pati yon pinapatulan. haay...

And now for another episode of the misadventures of nina fenix, otrp......
Guess what guys? NAIWAN KO ANG AKING SUSI SA LOOB NG KOTSE! Yuck. Nakakahiya lang. Buti na lang at may extra key ang tatay ko na mag-maneho pa mula alabang para lang isalba ako mula sa putik na aking kinalalagyan pero wala na e. Yun na ang best option. So word of advice, Always have the other key handy. Na kay papa kasi yung susi at mga 45 mins pa siguro ang hihitayin ko bago ako makauwi. Ang galing ko lang grabe. Una, nag paayos ako ng kotse only to find out na ang cause pala ng eternal na pag bara sa gas tank ay isang 2-yer old na trapo na naiwan sa loob ng tangke. And now this....Sabi ko na nga ba. Dapat talaga hindi na ko lumabas ng bahay. I had this gut feeling that today was not a good day for driving pero ano ginawa ko? I ignored it again and look what happened. Bigla ba akong nagising? Inaantok na kasi ako kanina at nag text na ko sa friend ko na uuwi na ko kasi nga malapit na akong antukin ng bonggang bongga ng hala! hindi ko mahanap sa loob ng bag ko yung susi. At pag check ko andun ang mahiwagang susi sa ignition. Huhuhu....
So eto ako, ang internet muna para hindi naman ako masyado maburo at kaslukuyang wala nang mukhang ihaharap sa mga ka-office mates ni kuya kasi kinukwento niya sa lahat na NAIWAN KO ANG SUSI SA LOOB NG KOTSE! Huhuhuhuhuhu.........

habang nakaupo ako nakatitig sa computer screen at naglalaro ng free cell, naisip ko lang ang mga bagay na ito.....
From famous commercial lines:

• more energy mas happy--kasinungalingan! kung ikaw ay taong tulad ko na workaholic, malamang sa malamang ay uubusin mo na rin lang ang natitira mo energy para makatapos ng mas marami pang trabaho kaya suma tutal, wala pa rin masaya, pagod pa rin kayong lahat.

From tv show lovers in paris:

• Kung ang 1 araw ay naging 25 hours, ano gagawin mo dun sa extrang 1 hour? - Sagot: matutulog. Dahil bukod sa pera, yun ang isang bagay na kulang sa buhay ko ngayon.

From the movie "Wanted":

• What the F*@k have you done lately?---- work, sleep, eat, drive (naks! pwedeng next album title ni gwen stefani).

From the song "Hand in my Pocket" by Alanis Morissette:

• i feel drunk but i'm sober, i'm young and i'm under paid, i'm tired but i'm working YEAH!

actually, nawala yung train of thought ko. may naisip akong mala- top 10 nina chico at delamar sa Rx/writing ni bob ong pero di ko na maalala kung ano. Hala, kulang sa beans......
Pero ano ba ang gustong tumbukin nitong entry na to. Simple lang naman yon friend: Pagod na kong magtrabaho. Kaya lang hindi naman ako makapag leave dahil ubos na yung mga VL ko, nauubusan na din ako ng sakit na pwede kong i-dahilan para sa di ko pag pasok (nagamit ko na ang lagnat, trangkaso at sinusitis. katam na lang nagamit. Pero malamang pag ginawa ko yon, e hindi na rin ako papasukin ng mga boss ko for good). Buti nga at hindi pa nila masyadong napapansin na nagkakaka skit na ko buwan buwan. But that's the thing. Ang malamang na next episode na ulit e sa September na. Kailangan biggyan ko ng atleast 2 months ang sarili ko, medyo lumuwag pa naman ang load ko ngayon.
Yun nga lang, babalik tayo ulit sa fact na hindi ko kayang pumirme lang sa bahay at walang ginagawa. Nasubukan ko na yon dati, after graduation. Nung natapos na ang lahat ng make ups ko sa mga center at wala na lang akong iisipin kundi ang mag aral para sa boards. After 2 weeks, nag-apply nako sa call center. Para meron akong pang gimmick at para may dahilan ako na sa Q.C. umuwi. Pag nag-resign ako ano naman ang gagawin ko sa aking life? Mahirap umasa sa mga home patients, dahil sa totoo lang mas nakakatamad para sa akin yon. Mahihirapan sin ata akong mag-shift from adult to pedia. Wala naman akong balak kumuha ng Master's degree (aside from the fact na wala akong pera). Hay...hinihintay ko na lang na bumaba ang census. Malapit na yun e.......

Ang sarrrraaaappppp! aircon! kamusta naman kasi ang kotse ko, kailangan ko i-pa check kaya ayon, di ako makapg aircon. medyo tinopak kagabi at akala ko e titirik ako sa gitna ang alabang pero lucky me mami, hindi naman. Sinusumpong lang si pong (pangalan ng car), ayaw ata umuwi ng alabang, hehehehe.......
May 1 na! holiday nga at kaslukuyang medyo tahimik pa dito sa mall pero eto ako, tatambay dito sa eastwood para makatapos ng trabaho, at makapanood ng sine. Kung ano movie hindi ko alam baka iron man. may nag sabi sa akin na pangit daw yung super hero movie. Bigla naman akong nanghinayang sa 160 Php ko. Ayaw ko gawin yung trabaho sa bahay dahil bahay nga iyon. At malamang manood lang ako ng ugly betty buong maghapon di na ko naka tapos ng work, tataas nanaman ulit ang kuryente ko. panalo! actually, medyo sinusulit ko lang yung ibabayad ko dito sa internet shop at siyempre para makalibre na din ng aircon, para medyo matuyo yung kilikili ko, medyo namawis e (minsan talag kahit pag nag deodorant ka, iba talaga ang init dito sa pilipinas), kakahiya naman. baka may makapansing cutie sayang hehehe.

I just read my friend's e-mail to her dad. ang una kong comment, "hindi ka naman talaga galit ano?!" pero medyo nalungkot lang ako because i never realized that ganon na pala talaga kalala yung problema nila ng family niya. and i'm supposed to be her best friend! kamusta naman ako. somehow, na-guilty ako kasi parang feeling ko i really wasn't there for her. And now i can't help but feel how lucky i am because despite of all my dad's ~ahem~, they were able to surpass it. and somehow i know that we were never a factor because if my mom wanted it, then noon pa sila hiwalay at malamang 2 lang kami ng kapatid ko ngayon, hindi na kami aabot ng anim! i guess mahal lang talaga ng parents ko ang isa't isa.
Which is why i'm more scared shitless now than before......
Sa clinic naman, our receptionist is currently having marriage problems as well. She tells us that she now regrets marrying her husband, and that she'll leave him once she has the chance. siyempre, sinabi pa rin namin na wag, may mga anak kayo and everything pero come to think of it, gusto mo ba talaga lumaki ang mga anak mo sa ganoong set up? (syempre chinismis ko yung receptionist namin diba?)
and now it makes me think that i'm really probably better off na single. Sabi ng best friend ko, he thinks i'm single by choice. Sagot ko sa kanya noon hindi. E kung meron ba naman akong nakilala e di malamang hindi na rin ako single no, atsaka hindi ko na kasalanan na kung magkagusto naman ako sa iba e hindi nila mabalik ang feelings ko ~ancient history.....enough said......~.
If before i'm single by chance, now i think i am being single by choice........

Break muna. I have been google-ing CIMT for patient qualifications and after an hour, I had enough. I'll try again tomorrow. Gosh. it's easter. It means it's monday tomorrow=work=new patients=more work. And I don't want to yet. My vacation is just starting, although i often get sick when i'm on leave, i kinda like the idea of getting out of bed at the time you're supposed to be at work.
Uhhhhhhh.................................................huhuhu....................................huhuhu.....
I went on vacation so that I could reset myself and get me motivated. The problem is not seeing them for a few days had made me reconsider some things, like am I still happy at my work, if Im not will i resign, what will i do if i resign, the usual chain of thought.
Okay, here's the thing. These past few months had mede me realize that I do love my work, as an OT. I like being the boss, and I do think I have the knack for it. But the main problem is not the job itself but it's more with the people i work with. They don't make it fun and I seriously don't know who's being honest with me. I don't go to most of the gimmicks they arrange because going would make me feel like i'm still working. I could run away and not work there, but the thing is there will be people like them wherever. I feel like I'm suddenly transported back to highschool, where my first 2 years was actually hell. Thankfully things were way better on my 3rd year, but I have to wait for another year? I have to go through with it because it was highschool and I don't have the choice mainly because my parents has a final say about it but i'm working now and I can resign and my parents cannot do anything about it actually. But then what would I do? They'll be leaving soon anyway. And actually, reading 7 habits of highly effective people is not helping me much right now because it makes me feel more frustrated and I don't know if i am making much progress.
huhuhu........................................................................................huhuhu.............

I love a challenge. Don't you? just when I thought I was familiar with the current techniques that are being used in practice, I realized I wasn't. I have a new patient whose wife apparently does her homework and regularly researches new treatment procedures in the internet asked me one magical question: What do you think of induced constraint therapy? And i was like "say what?" I was lucky i was able to get out of my wits and answered "Im familiar with it. it was mentioned in school but just enpassing(lying.... and its holy week. im so bad~well if it was mentioned, tulog ako non kaya di ko narinig). More focus was given to the traditional techniques such as NDTS, MRPS...." Gosh. Pang Binibining Pilipinas! Super. Except for the wrong grammar part. And since I told my patient Im willing to try it out and see if it will work, here iam. researching. To give you guys an idea(lalo na yung sa mga tulad ko na hindi masyado familiar) it's like MRPs, na mas toxic. because the program requires that the unaffected arm be placed in a sling (accdg to anna limpingco yung tunay na prog requires the px to wear a FIBER GLASS SPLINT!), then the affected arm is subjected into intense training. as in pipilitin mo yung patient na humawak ng spoon, mag sabon etc. using his hemi arm. I haven't seen a manual or treatment protocol yet and after an hour of research so far what I have are the qualifications so that the patient may be included in the program and with what other techniques can it be combined with.
And to think, Im supposed to be on leave and was supposed to not do any work till monday. Looks like I have the whole week to look for material. Sabi ko na nga ba. hehehe ;p Enkoy the week guys

Today wasn't exactly what I had in mind. I was planning on spending my morning with my bestfriend, then I'll be going to my home patient in the afternoon, be dead tired so that I'll just hop in bed the moment I step inside the house. Instead, my brunch was cancelled, I moved my scheduled patient early in the afternoon, spent 2 hours in starbucks, played 2 video games in the arcade, watched atonement (which by the way is a very serious movie), and to top all that am having a massive headache because I haven't eaten properly all day (or this could be just a delayed brain freeze reaction from the coffee jelly frappe I had this afternoon ~note to self: stick to hot starbucks drinks~). Or again this could be due to the fact that there were noisy sossy little girls and boys inside the movie house a while ago. It was a good thing the movie was too serious for them, they left 1/3s of the film and never came back again, good riddance. The movie was good, and I actually wanted to find a copy of the book and see if the book was as good as the film. The part that I liked about it is how one of the characters (Brainy - pronounced briny) recognized her mistake and tried to seek atonement for the thing she had done to her sister and to Robbie.
I'm just babbling here. Im checking my watch because I still have to eat and actually have no idea where. Ill probably try the japanese restaurant in the 2nd floor.

Questions lang......
1. Pwede kaya ako umabsent sa Monday? Sabihin ko na maysakit ako kahit wala naman, ayoko lang silang makitang lahat (patients and co-workers).
2. Ano naman ang gagawin ko sa araw na yon? Manonood ng t.v.? titig sa kawalan?
3. Kung aabsent ako ng monday, pati rin kaya tuesday?
4. E kung mag leave na lang kaya ako? May VLP na ata ako na pwedeng gamitin, di ko lang alam kung pwede na ulit. Gets?
5. Saan naman ako kukuha ng pera pag nag leave ako?
6. E pero gusto ko ba talaga mag leave? Nag kakasakit kasi ako e kapag hindi ako nag tatrabaho.
7. E kung ganon, ano na gagawin ko, kung yung solusyon sa problema ko e yung problema ko rin mismo?

*Kung may sagot ka, paki text naman ako please. Di naman ako nag palit ng number. Piso lang naman yun e. Thanks ;p

happy new year peeps! wow. 2008. two thousand eight. 2-0-0-8. (halata ba na wala na akong mailagay dito kundi happy new year?)
But seriously. Guys, how was your 2007? Mine was.......hmmmm....how am I going to say it........sakto lang. Yep that's a nice way of putting it. Sakto lang. I had my shares of ups and downs, high times and low times. But if I would look back, I would not change a single moment. because it has made me stronger (personality-wise and drinking-wise hehehe) and more mature.
But this isn't a proper time for drama. This is suppose to be happy! So let's be happy mga peeps. And be thankful for all the blessings we have received. And my wish for you all, is to have a happier 2008!
Cheers!hic! whoops